I think about how unorganized my life is at the moment. I haven’t been treating myself good at all! I wonder about my future and what’s gonna come next. I hate the feeling of being on this campus and not doing something i love. I want to live in California and be going to school. I want Brian to be happy there and for us to create more memories than we have here. I want my family to come with me, even though they can’t. I want to start my life. I feel like i’m stuck here waiting for it to begin, not knowing if everything is gonna workout the way i want it to.
I don’t know. This is what rainy days do to me.
I need to go home and be with my family and Brian