and i can’t quit thinking about how happy it made me feel. I guess i have this fear of my family forgetting about me or loving me less because i’m across the country from the them…which i know isn’t true. But it’s sometimes hard to not feel that way when you’re alone.
Anyways, i got to see my mommy which was so nice because she’s my best friend and it’s been over a month since i’ve seen her in person. That’s the longest i’ve gone without seeing her face in person. Mehhh. I also got to see how big Jennifer is getting. My new little niece will be here soon! She looks so happy and it makes me sad that i won’t be able to get there when she’s born. Wahhhhh. I saw bits and pieces of Grayson…because i guess he didn’t wanna talk to me. ): but finally, i saw Haven…which always seems to brighten my day. He was wearing his Halloween costume….which is spider man….with huge muscles! Haha. But it was so cute because he was trying to give me things through the computer and show me his room. He’s like “I wanna show you my room. It’s okay, i’ll hold you.” Man, i miss that boy so much.
But i’m glad i got to see them all because it made me feel a little closer to home. I love them allllll sooooooo much and i can’t wait til i get to go visit or they come visit me.
In the meantime i need to focus on school and getting a job ASAP.
I’m happy in California…it just gets a little lonely sometimes when Brian’s working or with friends. Someday that’ll change, but in the meantime all i can do is wait and hope for the best.
Anyways, i’m going to lay down and watch the Walking Dead with Brian in bed.