Well you were supposed to be the best year so far. I looked forward to you since I started high school. You were supposed to be the best time of my life. You didn’t exceed my expectations though.
You started off horribly with my family and I being out of our house from February to April/May. You brought me my 18th birthday which was good. I got my first two tattoos. During high school my senior project was no fun. I found out what it was like to be lost and without the person I love. You finally let me graduate high school and find out who my real friends are. You let me maintain a job all throughout the year and apply to the colleges that I wanted. Even though I ended up disappointed in the end when SCAD didn’t work out, now I see that it was worth it. You showed me the college life and what you’re supposed to be doing at my age. You opened the door to new opportunities, experiences, and friends. You changed my future path and let me regain my confidence. You came through and mended relationships that were meant to be. You showed me who deserved to be in my life and who didn’t.
Yes, you brought me plenty of good times. But unfortunately more bad than good.
You’ve done a lot.
As much as i’ve learned from this year, I’m definitely ready for you to be over. I’m ready to start off 2011 with a new outlook on life. I’m goin’ places and I’m ready to start in NYC. It’s been fun, 2010.
I’m sorry i overthink things. I know i need to change. /:
This is the part of me that you’re never gonna ever take away from me
For reestablishing my happiness. Of course it’s always been there, but i just need that. Thank you for saying something from your heart….something that i didn’t expect. I really needed that.
Now we’re gonna spend a wonderful “vacation” together in the big apple in approximately
9 days, 3 hours, and 5 minutes.
I guess there’s a time when Christmas becomes less important to you when it comes to getting presents or telling others what you want. Well at least for me..
This Christmas i just want the people around me to be happy. Maybe that’s me growing up or maybe that’s me just wanting to be a good person. I’m not sure..but that’s what i’ve aimed for this year.
I’ve bought most everyone in my family a present with my own money including two of my managers and an old teacher. That’s what feels good.
As far as the rest of my life goes i feel okay. It’s been a pretty crazy past week. I mended a friendship and straightened things out. I freed myself from someone that was pulling me down and never a real friend. I’d say i’ve made some progress.
Tomorrow i start back at Ingles…woo. I don’t want to work, but i need the money. It’ll be good for me. Christmas is so soon and it doesn’t even feel like it. I get to see my dad’s side of the family tomorrow also…then Friday we’re havin’ a party at mom’s.
It seems that life is worthwhile when you’re laying in your boy’s bed and you have everything you need. Hopefully tomorrow is good and everything goes according to plan.
I love my family, my 2nd family, my friends, and Brian.
Sometimes i wish i could stay in this town and find a cute little apartment and be near my family and live with my best friend.
Then i remember that i want more than that. I remember that i have big dreams and i need to move to California before it’s too late.