Brian just left to go back home. ): I miss him already but i’m really glad he got to come! We had a lot of fun. I got to take him uptown, Panda Express, Ikea, and the mall. We also danced A LOT at the show as well as cuddle in my small ass bed in my dorm and watch movies. I’m content right now. (:
Hopefully he’ll get to come back soon.
In other news, i’m hoping i get to talk to mom today about some things. I can’t believe she was so understanding. Maybe it’ll all workout.
Well i’m supposed to go do some stuff with my sister and the kids tonight. That should be fun!
For some reason i’m in the mood to spill out my feelings to tumblr.
I’m in such a different stage in my life right now. Every day is different. I love living here in Charlotte. I feel like i’m becoming a better person and i’m growing up every single day. It’s nice to be able to have a taste of life on my own….but just a taste. On the other hand this damn place is the easiest place to get lost in depression. Not having mom or Brian here makes it super hard. Out of classes..if i’m not with friends…i find myself thinking way too much in my cold dorm room. It isn’t the best thing to do because when i sit and think, i depress myself.
I know that this is only the beginning of the next 4 years of this place, but i have to admit that i hope i soon find myself being completely content with life.
I hate living every day not knowing what’s gonna happen next (i’m referring to a certain situation). I let myself think that i’m always the person doing something wrong. I’m completely and utterly in love with you and i know for a fact that you’ve had more than an impact on my life. I hope you realize that i care about you more than i’ll ever be able to describe. We’ve been through so damn much and somehow i know that it will all be worth it in the end…even if i’ve gotten hurt in the process. I hope you see what we have…because it’s beautiful.
I feel like this has veering in another direction.
Anyways, life is better than it has been in awhile. Someday i’ll be completely content. Someday i’ll know for sure about us.
I love Charlotte. I love my mom. I love you, Brian.